\"to touch your love indeed\"
tenderly whispering to noone\'s ear
this madman
he bore resemblence to me, except
I wasn\'t him
\"They touched their golden harps,\"
as Milton would have
even now everything\'s darker
I feel suffocated
and despaired
even all hopes have now parted
dissipated
in the rain
and tonight seems even longer
perhaps close
to forever
as the
I thought he was me
- this boy I was talking to -
he bore an emotional similarity
to someone I used to be
but then I thought I was mistaken
having put all my belief
in only one place, so I
shall never ask:
what of your wings,
my dearest ravens, did you just leave
them on the moon I hide behind my ribs
why, now unseen, you took away
into your claws my bleeding dreams
shall only
might I ever feel that way again?
It makes me not want to call you,
makes me want to forget
all the feelings we shared... moments
out of broken times
might I...
[no, this won\'t do.]
might
my simple dreams
remind me
of my common origin
no royal blood flows through my veins
nor ever had I been enslaved
to glory eternal,
in halls of the kings
my simple dreams
yes I will be
early interference
I sit here alone
bored by my platitude
and how everything i do
alwas ends up the same
same inconfidence
how I seem to understand
always choose to forget
nevertheless I
playful
scratching noise
down my
restless soul
scentless
although young, and still
the movement
left a feeling
of insecurity
sad.
undetermined ideas
seeking to emerge again,
Where is the pain?
What did it do?
Was it a lie?
Was it not true?
What of the sadness?
Where did it go?
Who dows it haunt now,
And does it still grow?
Where is my fire?
What of my
and so it begins
the light slowly fading, and in my eyes
glitters: the light, the holy light
now if I can only reach it, touch it, if only I could
capture the very last of my moments
I\'m
I\'d be enraged
in my soul
would I find out
there\'s no love at all
I\'d be scared
in my soul
would anger settle
as it did before
I\'d be caged
in my soul
would you tell me
Let me enjoy
the remaints of my freedom
I know, when I die,
I will pay for my crimes
Why should I torture myself
And my demons?
Maybe there is no
Spiritual afterlife
Let me enjoy
the
It is
Only one:
last goodbye
from the solitary rose
that\'s I.
I\'m not
the one to
hold you tight
or right the wrongs
in your life.
I was
the one
who wolud
have died, if
only so you
Sometimes, I find myself
buried
so deep in the music
unable to move
I sometimes see fragments
Of great battles,
and greater love stories
As I breathe in the art
But sometimes they
Harmony divine
Destruction upon all living beauty
Lust: for life
Gone! Gone!
Disobedient, sarcastic
A sould sadistically trashing
all.
And all, unaware,
innocence was raped as he faded
And you despise me
For what I am, for what I mean
For what you always feared
I\'ll show you ways to live
And you\'ll despise me for what I have to give
And you despise me
For when I speak,
I burned your memory alive
into the winds
your scattered ashes may still fly
and then I washed my hands, my feet
and watched you cry.
Into the winds
I dissipate my every desire
And, though
following the light of my unfulfilled
dreams and desires,
I left the old world behind
never to look back again
with my old dreams torn apart
heading now for a new start
And I left the old love
\"you\", a memory of the past
\"you\" never surrounding ideeas
of what never has been unreal
the fleeting feeling,
glimpse of a \"you\"
that never was
coming close to the shadowless
Then, she took away my tears
And left me all alone
Struggling in the darkness
Heartsick, such a terrible disease...
Then she took away my fears
Left me here, and heartless
All alone within a
And when my lips yours will have sought
A loveless thought! A loveless thought -
You love me? Oh... you love me not.
Again I would cry, again I would pain
My suffering has been in vain...
But
Aware what your fate is, to what you are bound
And all that remains is what cries out so loud
Are your sinking thoughts in the World\'s dreadful crowd?
The tears that will flow… you\'ll forget all
of birth
Of all the suffering I\'ve known
Throughout my life,
the sadness... oh, I heard her cries
It all must end! We\'ll live again
With just a smile
Of all that was revealed to