two souls submerged in an aquarium
a mosaic of trembling rays
passing through yesterday\'s curtain
lights are turned off and on all in a tribal dance rythm
this barely noticeable background
my two halves rarely meet each other
the long evenings when my mother told stories to both of them are gone
my two halves lost a soul somewhere between them
and they walk with one lit candle in
you\'re old before your time
and you do not need me
*lungs dried with tobacco*
you\'re almost thirty and you think you\'re accomplished
*finger stains on your books*
there\'s an ashtray
he gad gotten weaker and weaker
I brought him everyday
sharp laments and pills
lances tips worn in wars
and memories from the Museum of Wishes
halogen lights
black lights from black
down from my neck
to the thighs
my body is a flickering hole
circling around an uncertain point
changing its position
searching for the perfect spot to hurt
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