I swear nothing matters right now

51.I’m gonna be disappointed on myself soon enough. It won’t be merely my fault, I will put a black light on life too (that might be an excuse, but...) It’s like everything’s a game, others have received the role of masters, „intellectuals”, able to mislead my mind into believing: “true, real, great, fantastic” and moreover, compel me (do not comprehend how) to accept some things above which I am bound not to rise. Interfering is not an answer…” It is better for them, therefore ~let go~ although it hurts”. A friend said: “you love someone, in any way, when you want that person (lover, parent, friend, teacher, colleague) to be happy, even if it doesn’t involve you. And I shelter butterflies until it’s time to depart from sight. But who decides? I guess they do, their perfect sparkles whisper: “Ready”. I guess I want certainty; however the time has yet not come. See that all around me…. “Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option” Tuesday, 24 April 2007 09:43:23