Thoughts XXIII

I’ve always been able to put myself in somebody else’s shoes, rarely a gift. To feel what the other does, see yourself through people’s eyes, imaginary or real you, is not that easy to handle. When I do that, my mind leaves in an unknown territory and I begin “dreaming” facts and points of view. And that’s why I hate seeing a friend upset, blue, angry, take your pick. Right now, I don’t feel what I used to; this world of stillness has changed, I’m offering a somewhat hidden protection to whoever deserves, in my opinion. Admit I’ve left behind… I have not been thinking with my heart for the past few days. Should I take this as an advantage? Wow, questions without any answer. Can anyone help? I guess not, or at least no one has proven yet. Someone told me to get used to this “non-feeling” for it’s quite often found inside people’s soul. Don’t know… Maybe we were all meant to discover our purpose in life. I haven’t seen mine yet. Still waiting… I once used to be happy for a certain individual when a smile was present at all times…now… I’m left speechless, not that I’m amazed or something, but just can’t say or do anything. ~thinking~ and I used to love hugs, eye to eye contact, words… I don’t wanna exist anymore for there is no one, nothing that can lift my feet, borrow a pair of wings for a while. Or is there? Are you still inside my soul, in a hidden chamber? Tuesday, 10 October 2006 21:17:29