Thoughts IX

You know what? I’ve just realized something. You are the person due to whom I’ve cried more than ever. And now I don’t know what to think. Fill my mind with light blue ideas and never let them out. Every time you needed me to teach, show, explain I was there and always will be. Shall you lift my feet, for my wings have trouble remembering how to fly? What a circle. The reason is the same old one. I came to understand a simple fact, which was obvious, but did not see it so clearly. Building a friendship means tying a string from one heart to another. If one of the persons involved shows a sad, upset face, you, as a good friend, will not be able to let that…just be. A sparkling tear shows up and the desire to make the sun reappear within the other’s soul. I’m seldom in that situation therefore I know what my friends need to get better: a piece of advice followed by an encouraging smile and of course, the thing that, from my point of view, heals a big part of the problem… a hug. You, as in you, should know better. Don’t ask what I call for, because you know it and I, myself, cannot admit it. Why? Because… I simply can’t. “Silence between strangers, close…”. Yeah right. That’s how it used to be. Now I’m speechless every minute. Need a push, but there’s no one there to offer such a simple, but at the same time, hard thing. Difficult ~thinking~. Yes! I believe you know what I sometimes need, your eyes kind of show it, but the heart stops clicking for a second, breathe in and out, and nothing. Still, that’s not my case. I’m just the other way around. Do exactly what you crave for and contentment reveals itself soon. What do you think; shall you ever do what your heart says and put in front of me that same happiness, so that I could easily embrace it? I wonder…