Thoughts I

Thoughts-incomplete It’s interesting how we came to know each other, pure accident. Great time spent together. I didn’t realize when you opened up so purely, somewhat regret that. But life had plans for me. Maybe it wanted my soul to suffer or maybe not, still I did. I’m asking:” What happened?” That endless harmony is… there can be many reasons. I look into your eyes- the same innocent soul as it always was. Still I fell like I cannot confide in you, not that you’re not trustful, but because I…can’t. It’s weird. I don’t know how it came to this. Feel a thunder between, will it vanish? Things are never going to be the same and not because I don’t want, but cause you have started to glide. Cannot open up; do not have the chance to. There are times when I sense a bit of discouragement coming from deep inside of you, I try to rise a wall against that emotion as you lay your tired wings in my arms. Did it till..now. Now, I am not “allowed”. “Don’t!”. Still, you’re there, I’m here. The middle line seems to disappear. I once refused that thought. At this moment it is a truth that I accept. I can’t believe I got over an overwhelming feeling. It once made me shiver, cry and meditate. But don’t mind me. Actually act like always for there is almost no difference between not “seeing” me and your usual behaviour. The moments of “how it used to be” are so rare that they seem special. You’re ok, I’m ok, but I don’t know what suddenly turns everything around. The sky somewhat changes as you do. Far far away where that old tree loses a leaf day by day, my heart finds its remorse. If I were to come back to “want everything to be as it used to” and keep on creating a path to that light, I would certainly find a tor. And that’s what bothers me. Can’t hope, for I would meet sorrow again. Silence between strangers, close when we’re alone. I said it before, I say it again: it’s interesting. But don’t mind me. I shall reflect while looking up. Oh! I love the sky, and many more…