What the fuck?...

I am so alone in this fucking city, the woman I love doesn\'t care about me. All I do is useless, all I do is nothing. Is this life worth living, or should I just skip it? Why have I been put here, what\'s the role I\'m playing? All this time I\'m wasting will come back to haunt me. But, although I see it, I don\'t try to stop it; stop this waste of time in this fucking city. I just need a purpose, I just need a soulmate. Or is it money that I lack so much, for all my desires I cannot indulge? I\'d wish I was different, but that\'s suicide, and what good\'s a human when he want\'s to die? I look through the window and I just see nothing, so I draw the shades just to break the habit. Now I can imagine how a perfect city rises to the skies custom built to fit me. Oh, and look who\'s coming ready to embrace me! It\'s the one I longed for all this time; my lady. So, we walk together bathing in the light, and if I\'d try harder, even fly I might. And I am so happy here in my city. I could die forever, for it is so pretty.