Confusion

Have you ever looked around and saw every object and being in a totally different light than normally? It used to happen to me a lot when I was younger. I try to do it every now and then too, just hoping that I might grasp other perspectives of the world around me. (\"The world around me\" - that sounds incredibly self-centered, or am I just paranoid?). And it seems like every time I do that, I feel like I am a complete stranger. Because somehow everything is just new and I realise that I live my life as it would be a dream and \"just for me\". I mean, I miss balance and harmony, and I really don\'t know where to get them. Because I feel like I don\'t have a point of reference and I\'m just floating around along with a lot of \"stuff\" (Amazingly artistic word, no?), that just keep changing...